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Feeling conflicted

I know this might sound strange, but I have felt guilty about posting fun things about my family. So many of my friends and family are going through so many difficult trials right now, and I don't want to seem heartless and insensitive to their pain. That said, I know these people that I love are also excited about our new little guy. So, please know that despite the happy posting, I am still thinking about you, praying for you and worried about you.


Baby H is growing well, at his 2 week check-up he weighed 5Lb. 9oz., and I am sure he weighs even more now. He is a pretty needy baby. He likes to be with mom all the time (but truth be told mom likes to be with him too). I just say that he and I went through a huge ordeal together, and we understand one another.

As needy as he is, he is pretty good. He has already established a night-time routine (that is not to say he is sleeping through the night, but he doesn't need to play at night, just eat change and back to sleep for 2 hours), he is quite alert when he is awake and he is finally letting other people (including dad) hold him.

I love the baby smiles so much.
He love to look at everything while he is awake. He seems to be much more aware than the other kids were at his age.

You can see that he has Kent's nose in this picture. I know it sounds crazy, but we love it, he is the first kid that has a distinguishing characteristic that is definitely one of ours.

Here is K at H on Valentine's day. K LOVES being a big sister. She talks to him all the time, and he loves it. He recognizes her voice almost more than mine.

D likes having a brother too, but he has been sick alot too. I have a feeling that little H is going to think his big brother is AWESOME.
H loves to snuggle with his mommy. He is so sweet, soft and snuggly. I try not to neglect everything else, but it is so hard.
He finally likes his dad, but he really likes him now. Kent loves little babies, so I am glad that H will finally snuggle with dad.

Overall we are doing really well. Sleep depravation is making me a little crazy, but that is totally normal. We are just feeling so lucky to have our little guy. We think about how blest we are everyday, things could have gone very different. It makes my heart feel so good to hold him close.

(the other kids are doing fun things too, I promise to get to them sometime too)

Comments

Seleta said…
It is great to see your update! He is such a doll! Just darling!
February 18, 2010 at 5:30 PM
Terésa said…
He is so handsome!! I bet you are just loving him to peaces! I'm so happy you posted, and I LOVE the pics :)

Love you.
February 18, 2010 at 7:05 PM
Teresa said…
He looks so good!! I am so glad that things have been going well, I have been thinking about you guys a lot. And don't feel bad about neglecting the housework, it will still be there in awhile but your new tiny baby will be all grown up so enjoy him now!
February 19, 2010 at 8:30 AM
Katie said…
I am glad that all is well at your house. Love the pictures of the new baby. I miss those days when you can just hold them and love on them.
February 19, 2010 at 6:35 PM
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